"Throwing Shit at a Wall" (or TS@aW for short) is a series of home demos written and recorded to allow the muse to flow and blow out the cobwebs. These aren't intended to be pristinely recorded and honed tracks, more stream-of-conciousness paint splotches to keep me creating & exploring musically and also brushing up on my recording skills...
This is the first track of the series, released the first week of January, 2011.
lyrics
Chance meeting - post favourite,
My blood as cold as snow,
Avoiding the question - my lack of confidence shows.
I see with crystal vision,
Every thread on her coat,
You notice somethings missing,
My head reacting to a blow.
It's not like I planned it - getting hurt like so.
It's something I've avoided,
Maybe too much I know.
All these things just cause confusion,
I wish I knew how to better
Navigate these thoughts like herding cats
I bet you'd do no better.
I am an ever turning needle on a post,
I cannot stop for fear that you might realise I'm lost.
These are the bitter words for me to swallow in my throat,
This is the darkest lie to hide behind,
But the journey that I'm starting on is long.
Every word is too familiar,
Every word strikes at the heart,
I look at them, I wonder if they could be used to swallow me.
I am not your answer calling,
I am not your wrecking ball,
I am not your angel coming,
I am not at your beck and call.
I am an ever turning needle on a post,
I cannot stop for fear that you might realise I'm lost.
These are the bitter words for me to swallow in my throat,
This is the darkest lie to hide behind,
But the journey that I'm starting on is long.
credits
from Throwing S**t at a Wall,
released January 1, 2011
Written, recorded and produced at home by Bill Coleman.
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